howdey all

Its been a while since i wrote anything.

I think i am ready for a relationship and i know it would be better for me if i was in one. Do i have to go out there and find it or do i wait and let it find me? I think i fancy anyone who pays attention to me. Sad i know!

Know one would want me anyways cos im so angry all the time. im really stressed out with university and living on my own. My flat mate and i really do not get on anymore cos we had an affair and we still like eachother but she has a gf now and i dont like it. We have had actualy punch ups (read previous blogs).

My phone got smashed up in one of the fights now i am waiting for a new one to come through! Grrr! Why am i so angry all the time that i cant control my temper?!

Anyone else experiane these blackouts and can teach me how to relax :S xx

Im drinking alot again and its helping! I love being pissed as i can forget about everything! Im harming again not just myself but anyone in my way and i cant stop. Im a fucking wreck but its my path of life i spose! When im at work im great person! caring loving but get me home and i hate everyone and everything!

Im pissed now!