What a fucking night!!

This may take time to write as i have 2 broken fingers lol. (Well not really lol cos it hurts).

Had the biggest bust up with my flat mate!! Like a proper punch up and i smashed the flat up! Which was silly as i now have to pay for everything to get it replaced so i guess i will try not to do that again!! She hit me, ripped my top, bra! everything! (she is a lesbian so i just blame that to her wanting my body lol)

It started cos she agreed to pick me up from work on monday night and the cancelled cos she wanted to get her leg over with some bird! I was well fucking angry cos 10 o clock at night im sitting on a bus going home in the heart of essex!! So got home and placed me key in the door! (she wouldnt be able to get in! Childish i know but i was angry) She then came home with this girl! which i was not amused about as i had to be up at 5 this morning! (well i would have been) So i didnt let her in! and she was going mad banging on the door and windows lol then she said 'I~f you dont open this door im going to smash ur face in u silly cow' Now that sent me over the edge and she came in and we had a massive fight in the living room with the 8 head listening to everything!

The thing is she tells me that she is in love with me and cos i said i like men and it would never happen she is doing this to spite me cos i brought someone back a few weeks ago and she got jelouse! Well i was jelouse last night and it hurt! 8 head and the lesbo was in the kitchen and I walked past to get a drink and they was kissing! and i was quiet jelouse and pissed off! Then we had another massive arguement which resulted in my smashing up things (like her fav annie lennox cd) which i dont actually feel to bad about it lol.

Smashed cds, vases, jewllry thrown everywhere, paper all over the place and the in started on the coke (the drink lol) and i threw it everywhere!!

Was i over reacting?? I think at some points i was but i asked her to pick me up as a friend and she wanted a fuck so she cancelled on me! HER BEST FRIEND!! which i found so hurtful!!

But i spose it will all end uo being my falut when she wakes up! She still has 8 head over in her room! Which ihas all my clothes in it and some more of my things

So what do i do now?!?!?! I said i was going to leave and move out but I fucking well aint going to!!

Please help thi little girl on the edge!

V