Can life play tricks on you? Or is it justthe simple fact that your doing things wrong in life?

I sit sometimes and wonder if i had made certain changes in my life, if i had done a few things differently, made changes i knew i should have changed, Been good when i was bad or been bad when i was being so good. Would i be feeling the way i do now? Dont get me wrong i am so happy with me life so far but i think i could always be happier!

I want someone to love. I want someone who loves me but am i just longing for something that isnt ready for me yet? I need answers i just need them!

university i think isnt going so well yet everyone is telling me how well im doing! For fuck sake why cant i believe them!

People tell me how loved i am! Why can i not feel it!

'Vicky you are pretty and so sweet' but yet i feel so ugly and drained!

i never thoght i would have a moment of dissapointment but since i lost the love of my life i just think that one day i will have him back but he has moved on! He is still one hell of a good friend to me but i cant help the way i feel!!!

Can you help me?