Can life play tricks on you? Or is it justthe simple fact that your doing things wrong in life?

I sit sometimes and wonder if i had made certain changes in my life, if i had done a few things differently, made changes i knew i should have changed, Been good when i was bad or been bad when i was being so good. Would i be feeling the way i do now? Dont get me wrong i am so happy with me life so far but i think i could always be happier!

I want someone to love. I want someone who loves me but am i just longing for something that isnt ready for me yet? I need answers i just need them!

university i think isnt going so well yet everyone is telling me how well im doing! For fuck sake why cant i believe them!

People tell me how loved i am! Why can i not feel it!

'Vicky you are pretty and so sweet' but yet i feel so ugly and drained!

i never thoght i would have a moment of dissapointment but since i lost the love of my life i just think that one day i will have him back but he has moved on! He is still one hell of a good friend to me but i cant help the way i feel!!!

Can you help me?

Does anyone have the right to tell someone how to be?
who has the right to be perdantic to me? Patronising? or even hurt my feelings?

I went to rugby training (I usually run there and back) Things was going fine, was having a really good session and then the coach picks up on the tinest mistake that i made. The bastard stopped the whole group of girls that are my bes friendsa dn shouted at me 'are you stupid? you play for essex and you make a mistake like that? I have 17 years coaching experiance and you cant fucking match up to me! stop being a retard and do something right for once' I started to get upset so i just walked away and got going home.

I had a bad night on the way home. I was followed by some guy who wouldnt leave me alone...............

I am so inlove! I really cant stop thinking about this person and i was with him on tuesday! he text me after saying that i am so special to him and i am amazing (i will just get my phone so i can write the actual text)

'You looked amazing tonight, So special to me and always will be. Cant wait till I see you walk through the door again. Your a beauty'

Then i recieve a text saying 'so when am i going to fuck you?'

What the hell?? Does he want to be with me as much i want to be with me? Or does he want a fuck buddy? What do you think?

Im feeling kinda lonely! I dont want someone there when they are but when there not i really really miss them? Something wrong with me?

Please answer my questions!!!

Howdey all!!

I like this blog thing helps me get it all out!! Wooo!!

Im happy today as i been on ebay and bidding and i just won and playstation 3 for £24.99 hahaha!! A superman top! and finally...... A wonder woman costume hahahahahahahahahahahaha I go to dublin in like 2 months for a rugby tour and the theme is superheros so i chose wonder woman, dont worry i will try and get a pic up so u can all see me in my glory!!

God there is this dude who is right fucked up! He says he likes me and i thought that i liked him 2 but he was being really weird last night. He phoned me and told me that he was in the pub with other women, so i said yeah and..... and he then came out with it makes u jelouse dont it! I was like omg what the fuk is his problem! So just by coincidence my best friend phoned me and said that he was in the pub that this guy was in and there wasnt actually and girls with him just his 2 work mates hahaha! So he is either trying to piss me off big time and its working or he is just being weird.......!

I miss my mum!
Im going shopping with her tomorrow so that should be cool to spend some time with her!:p I love living on my own but it is a bit stressfull as there money to worry about and food and loads of other stuff!!!

I miss a certain someone but i get to see him either 2mora night or sunday so i will give him a big cuddle (if im brave enough)lol

me and that old flame are just friends now! We hardly talk but tis okay! He likes someone else and so do I! I try talking on msn but its usually he says BRB and he dont reply for an hour so i cant be bothered anymore! never mind, i moving on!

One of my best friends from rugby is having a baby and im sooooooo excited!! I was with her when she found out she was pregnant and i cant wait for the baby to come!!!! but will be even better when she plays rugby again!!!!

Well im off now as i have got a date with a sexy piece of chicken lol

Love to all

V

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OMG I JUST GOT ANOTHER JOB OFFER!!!!!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

THIS IS THE BEST YEAR OF MY LIFE!!!!!

ITS IN PETERBOROUGH!! WHERE IS THAT???????

WHAT IS NEXT FOR THIS AMAZING YEAR???

Well the new year is here!!! And it has been a brilliant start so simple and easy and hopefully thas hows the rest will go on!!!

Im going to laugh and laugh and have the best time ever!!! im going to scrimp and save as much as possible!!

Im going to find some who i can love and be happy with! (I already think i can fall for this person)

*yawn* bed time is it???

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