Howedy all!!!

Well just got some news!!! I have been offered a job in scotland!!! Do i accept it or not though?? i have 2 weeks to decide before i have to get going!!! If i move to scotland i wont come back! but look at what I have to leave behind... My family, friends my old job!!!

i dont know what 2 do!! what would you do??

i recived a text from an old flame (i think i mentioned him)saying that he still loves me and all that load of stuff!!! God i miss him but i dont want a long distance relationship!So i guess thats my own fault but i love him!!!!!!!!

Grr back to work soon! i love my job but its so hard sometimes

Oh how rude of me did u all have a nice xmas?? i did!! was bit boring though but funny!!!

Anyways got to run now

Tooodalooooo

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This has been an amazing year for me and I have experianced many emotions!! I have laughed, cried, smiled and frowned. I have loved and lost, cheered and booed! I excelled in the sport i have passion about most.

In this year I have been so independant and been able to stand on my own two feet. Ive grown into a different person this year and I feel i am getting better and better at getting to know myself and being who i want to be.

This year for love has been different, i have loved only one person and when that ended in febuary i was devestated. As time went on I managed to get over it and that person has become a great great great friend of mine and i couldnt be without him. Since then I have not loved but found affection for people i never thought i would have. I belive i can love again but it will have to be with someone special and who can open my eyes to the world i have seen fly by me. I can find them and i know i will but when that day comes i will be nervous, scared but excited!

Family is an important thing in my life and i know that my family are there for me. I do not live at home anymore but i know i can still call it my home and my family will welcome me with open arms. I love my family so much, and next year will be no different. My family my life!!

Friends 2007 brought me the best friends i thought i could ever wish for but unforseen circumstances broke that away from my life. Is that a good thing? I shall not know. I have been granted with some amazing friends with whom share my passion for nursing. Could i be without them? No i couldnt. They make me laugh make me who i am and show me that not everyone is a spitful, nasty hurtful cunt!

2008 will be eventful im sure. New things will happen and new mountains i will have to climb. Although i do not regret anything that has happened, there are things i would rather forget but it was my 2007, my life, my ruin, my path. To all those who joined me i thank you. For all those who tried to ruin me..... Well there is another year, Come get me!

My life is amazing

I play Rugby

I have a great bunch of friends

Im a student nurse at london southbank uni

I live in Essex

I love going out and meeting people

I love being sociable

I can be very moody if i want to be

I take things to heart

I hate being single for too long

I text too much

I love to laugh

I love make up

I love to straighten my hair

I love brighton

my fav food is chicken

Im scared off possessed kids in films

I like to read

Have a bag and shoe problem....i buy too many

I am friendly

I am kind

i have a really good bad mood

I cant wait till im famous

I want to be famous

I really want to get married when im older

I love me, i am just me and i wont change

Music
anything!!! if i like it i will listen to it!!! WOOOHHHOOOO apart from grunge

Films
erm mainly teen flicks!! such as american pie and that lot lol andything scary with kids in it i hate it like the omen, the grudge etc scary

Sports
swimming and rugby me 2 favs!!! COMMON GIRLS!!! Been playing rugby for 3 years! Hope to be promoted again!

Scared Of
Possessed little kids the sixth sense so fucking freaky lol like the exorcist and . Not scared of much else! Just realized that i am terrified of the ocean! although it look beautiful and everything, if i cant see where im walking it terrifies me!! So i dont go in the sea much!!

Happiest When
Laughing!! When i am playing rugby! Or when i am Sleeping!! or at uni! Im always happy!!

audrey hepburn
I love her!!!!!!

Magners
Now me and my magners have a special relationship. I am actually in love with magners! I have never felt this way before! although magners is cool it makes me so hot and warm!! I love it when its got ice!! and then i love it when iv had to much and im drunk!! but i love magners!

Howdey all!

Well my first post! excited *claps hands*

Lets star with a question...... Have you ever been in a situation where you know in your heart what you are doing is wrong but you heart is being dominent and telling you to do it?
I moved out of my parents house and although i am having a blast living with my friend, i just miss everything about home so much. My heart was always telling me that i wasnt ready and that i am not finacially stable to do so but my head is telling me to do it for all the wrong reasons!! Im not independant and i can admit that freeley! I need some sort of support to help me! Will i get by? I dunno but i hope so.

Love life...

Everyone writes about their love life and how shit or how great it is and i am going to do no different i am going to talk about how my love life is so shit!!

I am not in love with anyone at the moment (at least i dont think i am but everyone tells me different) but there is someone i am falling for. I dont see him alot and yet I cant stop thinking about him and how he is just the person i need right now. He dont want me. I dont think he does anyway! I have asked him but i never got an answer so i can only take that as a no. It's okay as im not overly bothered but I would like to know where i stand as he flirts with me all the time and we even had a little kiss last night aswell! What does that mean??

I am also texting an old flame that i was in love with at a young age! He was amazing and i thought he was perfect! We broke up and the together again and the broke up and the together etc! But then we broke up and just lost contact (he claims he was a bastard to me but i say he wasnt) now we have started talking again all these feelings just come flooding back but there is no way i could go back there its just the principle of it!!!

I was in a relationship with a guy for 3 years and i thought i was going to marry him! I was head over heels in love and then he decided to call it a day with me! I acted like i was cool but i was heartbroken!! Ive been single since feb and now i feel i am ready to move on!

Am i just desperate for love? or someone who is ready just unlucky?? help!!!

work

I cant complain!! I am a nurse and i love my job so much! I try to be the best i can be but when i see bad practice it makes me so mad!!

Xmas

Why does it always come around when i have like noooooooooooooo money!!! i need to learn to buget!

Anyways comments appreciated! help even more so!!

Love

V